[Yeah, it's... not that she wouldn't appreciate the comfort.]
[It's that talking about it all makes the entire notion of being touched, of another well-intentioned human being touching you when you're so disgusting...]
[Yeah. She can't say that she wants anyone smoothing her hair right now. Even if her soul aches for the physical comfort, the very atoms that make her up feel revolted by the prospect, on Envy's behalf.]
[She rolls her shoulders in a melancholy shrug.]
I don't know.
I... I want things to just go back to normal. I wanna just forget it happened and go back to teasing you whenever we get bored and making out like stupid kids whose biggest problem is getting tangled up in our own shirts when we try to take 'em off too fast.
But that feels unfair.
I can't... I can't keep ignoring that shit's wrong with me.
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[It's that talking about it all makes the entire notion of being touched, of another well-intentioned human being touching you when you're so disgusting...]
[Yeah. She can't say that she wants anyone smoothing her hair right now. Even if her soul aches for the physical comfort, the very atoms that make her up feel revolted by the prospect, on Envy's behalf.]
[She rolls her shoulders in a melancholy shrug.]
I don't know.
I... I want things to just go back to normal. I wanna just forget it happened and go back to teasing you whenever we get bored and making out like stupid kids whose biggest problem is getting tangled up in our own shirts when we try to take 'em off too fast.
But that feels unfair.
I can't... I can't keep ignoring that shit's wrong with me.
I hurt you.
And I'm scared I'll do it again.